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Today has had it’s up and downs.I woke up really energetic for some odd reason.Although I didnt go to sleep until around 12am I’ve been so moody lately and that just isn’t me I have the same things stuck in my head have been here for months, it seems like every time I figure out what I’m going to do it comes back around and changes. It might be the lack of sleep Ive been having though, It seems like every night I fall asleep then I wake up from the most horrifying Gorey dreams. I should write a book on my dreams or something. they’re all pretty crazy. But the biggest thing on my mind is me having to move away from San Diego, I know there isn’t much for me here. But for some reason it still hurts to think of leaving. Although I bitch and moan about lacking in the friend area which is true, the people I do have in my life have expressed how much I mean to them. I absolutely with a burning passion hate hurting people. Especially people I love and care about, and having to leave them will hurt me so much. I wish the art institute of san diego offered photography, that would make my life go so much smoother. But I suppose everything happens for a reason and im ment to leave and make a new life out there. Other than that situation everything seems to be going really well and I need to learn to sit and watch everything because it seems like time is going by way too fast. Halloween is coming up and this time last year, everything was so much different. I don’t know if I should say that I was happier back then because I cant really remember what I was feeling. Although, my friend situation was alot better back then, until my best friend got a girlfriend and left, which is the worst thing/feeling in the whole entire universe. But I guess this past year has taught me to be independent, I used to be so scared of being alone at all and now its not really a problem at all. Other than things having to do with the past, I’m actually doing well right now. I had a huge talk with my mom last night, regarding my freedom and long story short, I can do more now. I guess I did a pretty good job of expressing to her that I didn’t want freedom to go do stupid things, rather than I wanted it to be able to get more serious about my photography. Which brings up another point of my friend chandler and I starting a partnership together doing photography. I really hope I can actually make money I really want my new camera soon, I love my d40, but I’m so tired of it. Well, for the rest of the night I might as well finish up my work.
“ive said so many things, alot that I regret but words will be the death of me. Mark them now, and hold your peace”
A rocket to the moon - The death of me
